Fight to Hold On

Like many of my friends, I’m a bit of a Pinterest fanatic. My sister introduced me to the social networking phenomenon explaining, “It’s like a magazine you don’t pay for.” What woman doesn’t love a magazine? I was hooked.

I tend to pin quotes with lovely typography every time I have a Pinterest browse. A recent pin read , “We fight to hold on, and we fight to let go.”

Your name
My hope
Fortress in the raging storm
My heart
Is Your home
Jesus let Your love take hold

– Hillsong Music, Mountain

I fight to let go. My boss left a note in my pigeon hole requesting to see me over lunch. All morning I felt guilty. What did I do wrong?

There was a fight going on. “I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. There is therefore now no condemnation. My guilty conscience has been sprinkled with the blood of Jesus.” I knew the Word. But I held on to a guilty conscience. I tried to shake it, yet guilt lingered for no reason.

Lunchtime came. I headed straight for my boss, knowing I would not be able to eat otherwise.

She wanted to see me about doing a duty for her on Thursday. She needed a favour. And I left her office angry. Angry that the devil had taken my peace by attacking my guilty conscience.

I fight to let go and I fight to hold on to the wrong things.

Why do I fight to let go of my guilty conscience? It does nothing for me, except invoke misery.

You know what? I’m letting go. I will not fight for things for which I should let go any longer. I am letting go of my guilty conscience. And Jesus, I am laying hold of You.

Philippians 3:12 Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me.

I hold on to Jesus and His love for me. For the more I know Love, the easier it is to let go of worthless thoughts. As I meditate on His infinite love, my grip tightens on the truth. There is no condemnation.

Sweet Jesus, You have laid hold of my heart, and I fight to hold on to You. I fight to press on. And I let go of things like guilt, shame, punishment, and frustration. I will not fight for them any longer. I will fight for You and Your promises. Jesus, let Your love take hold.

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Sarah Coleman is wife, mother of two boys, writer, pastor, teacher and friend. She loves Jesus with a passion and the feel of Australian sand beneath her toes.

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