Tired? Weary? Read this.

This chapter of Make Yourself Amazing talks about hard work. The post I want to share with you today is a reflection on the opposite: rest. I pray it is a blessing.

The smell of lemongrass and jasmine envelop my senses. I flop into the massage bed and close my eyes. My time, this is my time. Time away from work, kids, family, everything.

But I don’t relax.

Instead I worry.

It never used to be this way. I have always had my hands in many pies, but lately I find it hard to shut off. I am obsessed with being busy. I feel valued when I am busy.

I am Sarah and I am a workaholic.

And I don’t have a full time job. Except being a mother. Which I guess is a full time job.

Rest, for me, is daunting. When I stop and do nothing, my mind goes where it should not. I worry about what is not done. I feel guilty that I missed something. And the worry and guilt lead to more destructive feelings and thoughts.

Rest. I just want rest. Where I do nothing. Absolutely nothing.

It eludes me.

My discovery
Rest is not nothingness or the absence of problems. Rest is found in renewal.

Matthew 11:28-29 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

I look to refuel through emptiness: losing my responsibility and letting go of reality. Rest comes when I am filled. To overflowing. Taught of the Lord in grace and love.

In renewal I am filled with the Word. I make my way to the secret place and fix my mind on things above. I meditate on scripture and become who God wants me to be. I discover value in Christ and the finished work of the Cross.

Striving, worry, guilt, pain: gone.

This is the rest I strive to enter. Where days off change from emptiness to renewal. Where a full spirit eases my body and emotions.

And I have rest.

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Sarah Coleman is wife, mother of two boys, writer, pastor, teacher and friend. She loves Jesus with a passion and the feel of Australian sand beneath her toes.

6 thoughts on “Tired? Weary? Read this.

  1. Chris Monahan

    I am NOT a workaholic, but I still can’t seem to allow myself rest: sleep or otherwise. Worse, I suppose, is I can’t quiet my mind to hear God speak, assuming He is trying.
    I have reached a point where my life parallels Job, though not to that extreme. I remember not to condemn God if this is a trial He is allowing. And I keep walking, though slowly, in faith.

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    1. Sarah Coleman

      I am praying for a breakthrough in your situation. Trust in God. Receive His peace.

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    2. marie

      I too stuggle with not being able to sleep or keep my mind still. I saw a doctor recently and it helped. Chris have you spoken to a doctor about this? It might help.

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      1. Sarah Coleman

        Great advice. Talk with a doctor or someone you trust. God gives professionals wisdom.

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    3. Susan Gilbert

      I’m not currently working (resigned 10 mo ago after almost 20 yrs at same acc’t job). I too am struggling with getting my mind to just slow down to shut out the ‘noise’ & distractions so I can focus on time with God, in a quiet, resting mode. Lord, grant me rest in You to spend precious quiet time before your throne.

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      1. Sarah Coleman

        Amen. Renew yourself in Him. Father will give you rest.

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